
Season 1: Dark Waters
In our first season of Grief After Dark, D and Micki sail the Dark Waters of life, death and grief, opening up a conversation about what it means to survive, and what it means to live.
Season One Episodes:
1. Maiden Voyage
2. Uncharted Territory
3. Navigating
* Bonus 1: The STFU Challenge
4. Sirens and Lures
* Bonus 2: Moonstar Charms
5. Sharks and Shit
* Bonus 3: Adventures of Grief Girl
6. Sink or Swim
* Bonus 4: Little Love Bombs
7. Anchors
* Bonus 5: Gratitudisode
8. Docking

Introducing the Dark Waters journey! Who we are, what we're doing here and why we're doing it.
In Maiden Voyage, we explore surviving as kids and what those experiences have led us into. We also talk about a lot of other stuff including books, music, friendships and bananas.
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Here are some links to inspirational books, people and
things that we referenced in this episode:
Brene Brown - “Rising Strong” and other available books and audio


The truth of Uncharted Territory is…it’s SCARY! In the second episode, D. and Micki discuss the loneliness and camaraderie that can come with feeling lost. There are important things that it behooves (beHOOVes) us to remember about ourselves and about each other while sailing these Dark Waters, including packing our Survival Kit (Tool Box) and what that means! We also listen to D’s cat yowl for a second.
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How in God's name do we get through this? Here we revisit expectation, look into the biology of fear, explore how triggers work, delve further into the Survival Kits, and discuss general ways to cope that are potentially more productive than just punching people in the neck.
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Here are some links to inspirational books, people and
things that we referenced in this episode:
Don Miguel Ruiz: The Mastery of Love
Clemantine Wamariya and Elizabeth Weil:
The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and
Gladys Knight and the Pips: I've Got to Use My Imagination


Micki takes the STFU Challenge and her struggle is real, while D offers modern wisdom about how we get desensitized to noise. The quest for meditative peace continues.
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Lots of shiny, pretty, alluring things out there that will try and convince you they're the quick fix for your whole life. Do not trust the sirens - they are full of nonsense and fuckery.
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Here are some links to inspirational books, people and
things that we referenced in this episode:
Greater Good Science Center at the University of CA, Berkeley
Pema Chodron: When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times

A quickie about Micki's obsession with jewelry-making, gemstones, and other various passions as she shamelessly self-promotes her art and business, Moonstar Charms.
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Here are some links to inspirational books, people and
things that we referenced in this episode:
Moonstar Charms fine gemstone jewelry on Etsy.

The path to healing is not at all straight forward - it often loops back around on itself enough times to make you feel like you're failing, or flailing, or falling straight into the shark's mouth. There are ways to recalibrate. Perhaps with a Keanu fan club.
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things that we referenced in this episode:
D takes some time to talk to us about her life as a prolific artist and her Adventures of Grief Girl. Singing, dancing, painting, photography...our talented friend has seemingly done all things art, and is full of fun and wisdom about the process of creation.
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Here are some links to inspirational books, people and
things that we referenced in this episode:
Adventures of Grief Girl on Instagram
Michael Jackson: Billie Jean at Motown 1983
Dennon Rawles - On the Floor: If You Don't Love This, You Just Plain Don't Love Dancing!
Nikesha Breeze - Four Sites of Return: Ritual | Remembrance | Reparation | Reclamation


The curse of distraction, the injury of oversimplification, and the fact that sometimes it's not sinking or swimming, but both/and. Sometimes it's just about finding buoyancy so you can stay afloat. Sometimes people drop turd bombs on your nice emotional landscape. It's hard being a person.
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things that we referenced in this episode:
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In this bonus episode, Micki sets the stage with a heart opening meditation, and we get a solid dose of passion, intimacy, vulnerability and immense beauty as James Barros, Amanda Furdge and D each offer up a love-inspired piece of original poetry. You dropped a bomb on me, baby.

This week, D and Micki explore several different concepts, ideas and definitions of anchors: what they are, who they are, when and how we use them, and the importance of mindfulness in anchoring.
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things that we referenced in this episode:
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Coming full circle. Reintegration. What love is and isn't, and how you do or don't make time for it. Docking isn't always what you think...